30 Photo Challenges #2

30 PHOTO CHALLENGE_2

My Eulogy

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  • 365 Days of Writing Prompts

 

January 25

  • Dearly departed
  • Write your own eulogy

I often wonder what people would say about me if I died

My husband would no doubt say I was a good mother, and while I was, I hope that is not all I was remembered for. There was/is so much more to me than just the way I have tried to raise my kids

My kids would probably say I was a control freak; not realizing that it was never my intention to ever be that way. The way I saw it,  someone had to take responsibility

I never wanted to be in charge all the time, circumstances awarded me that job. God knows there were days I would have been happy for someone else to take over, but there wasn’t really anyone to relinquish that role to

 

My best friend would probably say I was the most loyal, 
honest, trustworthy friend you could have

I cherish them with all my heart, 35 years and counting...

 

My family would say I have been through a lot, I was a nice person?…hopefully

My nieces and nephews would hopefully say I was funny and a cool Aunty…

Anyone who has ever worked with me would say I was a hard worker and went over and beyond to get things done

My youngest son would reverberate that I was good at ‘fixing things’…..an’ in’ family joke….

 

What I would like people to know is this…

I didn’t always know what I was doing, I sometimes might not have done the right thing, but I always did what I thought was right, the best thing to do at the time

I am truly sorry for any heartache I caused anyone, it was never my intention, especially my kids…

I didn’t make decisions lightly

I hope my kids will forgive me for my life choices, I hope they will forgive me for time that was taken from them and all the times they had to move and start again

I love my kids more than life itself, I always have, and always will and couldn’t be more proud to be their mum.

I am sorry if that was suffocating for you

I never wanted them to ever hurt or feel sad or ever have to worry about a thing. I wanted them to have a better life than I had growing up and I hope one day they will see that.  I tried to make sure they were afforded opportunities to be the very best they could be

I wish them nothing but love and joy and happiness…. I am sorry I never got you a puppy, I wanted to more than you will ever know

Don’t remember the drama, remember the times we laughed watching movies or comedians or the times you scared the crap out of me or the time I flipped the plate of food watching your horrible movie, all the times we went out to eat and the music you shared with me

I know you will think me writing this is still me being a control freak and having to have the last word, you don’t even know…

 

To my husband

I am sorry, if I could turn back time I would. None of us knew what life was going to be like, you wanted the Brady Bunch and probably ended up with The Adams Family…lol

My one big regret is not having TIME with you; I feel that was robbed from us.  You never got to see or know the real me. All you ever saw were the remnants of a tired, exhausted person at the end of chaos and drama.  I was not allowed to be myself. Time and circumstance would not allow it. I did love you, despite what you may think.  Life got in the way of ‘us’…we got old & tired before we were ever meant to

 

To people who have never lived with me

I see myself as a pretty Zen type of person. I don’t like noise and drama, yet it seems to keep finding me.  I am a lover, not a fighter.

I love kids and babies and wish I had probably had more.

I love the beach, photography, going to the movies, especially comedies.  I love anything ‘Indie’- music, clothes,art… I love traveling and didn’t get to do nearly enough of it

I have always been a free spirit / gypsy girl, give me an open road, a cute car with a great radio, a good camera, bootcut  jeans, bell sleeves any day of the week, shoes not required…

Asian food is my favorite, I could eat it all day every day, Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese…yum!

Some would say I wore my heart on my sleeve, which often made others uncomfortable, I didn’t know how to be any other way, I called it being honest and real.

I really don’t care very much now what others think of me because I know who I am.  I know that people who really matter, know what I am really like.  I stopped explaining myself when I realized people will only ever see you from their own perspective and level of maturity and emotional growth

 

To my best friend, you know who you are..

I couldn’t have done ‘life’ without you and I know you know that.  You kept me going.  You made me laugh.  You gave me joy and happiness and strength and love and a sense of belonging.  You knew me better than anyone.  You saw more and heard more and cared more than my own family.  You were family to me and always will be.  There is nothing I wouldn’t do for you.  I know the same to be true for you.  Who would have thought out of all the people we knew, you and I would be the ones that remained friends when the others all fell away and forgot about us.  I cannot thank you enough. For being you, for loving me, for being there, for supporting and encouraging me, for helping me and trusting me and being the most amazing friend anyone could ever wish for. Don’t be sad I am gone, be happy for the time we knew each other

 

 

 

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